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Friday, November 3rd, 2006
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3:36 pm - Oh Live Journal...
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How I miss thee. I AM BACK. I'am over the whole myspace thing now, but for those of you who haven't added me as a friend.. Myspace.com/theworldoftim. I have a new job with CVS now, Assistant Store Manager, yay. Moneys not bad and I almost have a normal life. Still may help at Crystal here and there for the extra couple bucks. Liz leaves for the Navy next month :(. Went to dinner with Auntie Alice last night, which should have been all good since we haven't seen eachother in forever. She brought James, and well...I felt ignored...I also woke up in a horrible mood this morning, and I had enough sleep, so I just think I am Male PMS'ing, not sure. Catch up later. So much to tell ya's. Peace :)
current music: Law and Order
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| Wednesday, May 31st, 2006
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1:12 am
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We weave tangled webs at times, and its amazing how the past can come back and haunt. Cross your fingers for me, this all works out tomororw.
current mood:  blank
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| Tuesday, May 30th, 2006
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2:47 am
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can I say wooo to a great night that I was tricked into by my sister!! Woo, thanks Liz, I love you!
current mood:  hyper
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| Monday, May 29th, 2006
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2:17 am
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Why am I able to make it through my day just fine, but as soon as I am home and time to reflect on my day I feel like I didn't do all I could. And why then do the feelings of lonliness set in? Who knows.
I am very aggravaited at the moment. With people who expect more then I can give at particular moments. I work a different schedule then normal people and I wish everyone could understand that. I also sometimes am selfish with my time, especially after long hard days, I wish everyone could understand that too. Also with, boys, coworkers, money and blah blah blah...I hate when all i do is bitch. Did I mention my sister baked and its fucking hot in here.
I don't like when people intentially try to make me feel like shit. I don't do that well. I know there are a few people that may think this is about you, but its not just you, its everyone.
current mood:  aggravated
current music: Chris Brown - -Gimme That
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| Wednesday, May 24th, 2006
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1:23 am - Tried to
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I triedto quit smoking, and smoked last at 2am last night and made it 18 hours into tonight and lost it at dinner and smoked two ciggerates cuz I was going crazy. im smoking right now again. So I will try again tomorrow.
I ran into a boy I talked to for ahile tonight at dinner, didn't exchange any words. His bf is really unattractive. We stopped talking cuz he didn't seem interested. I don't understand what this boy has. Maybe I am to real and sincere in life for people, maybe im to much reality to take.
I sit here, again tonight questioning my life. Why don't I have friends my age, and do things other people my age do? Am I to mature? Maybe I just am not into all that, I dont kow. More importantly questioning why I am single, and get passed on and over.... sitting here again tonight, listening to torch songs...
Goodnite
~*~Tim~*~
Bring on tomororw, another oppurtunity to make it count.
"Find someone to love, and then live each day as if it were your last"
current mood:  hopeful
current music: Teddy Geiger - For you I will
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| Tuesday, May 23rd, 2006
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1:39 am - Update..
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He now knows, feeling isn't mutual. Sad, again.
current mood:  crushed
current music: All American Rejects - My Paper Heart
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| Sunday, May 21st, 2006
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3:23 am - So...
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...I am in love with this boy, and he doesn't know it. Everyone think positive thoughts for me :) This one is gonna happen!!
~*~Tim~*~
current mood:  flirty
current music: Angels and Airwaves - (Something Final) I think...
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| Thursday, April 13th, 2006
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10:00 am - Who needs a man
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I haven't heard from him in over a week. Thats ok, thats why we have friends. Last night, was amazing. Get decked out, in my black armani suit. A friend and I went to dinner at Motor City Grill, nice place, food was good. Then over to an 8 o'clock showing of Les Mez, which was also very very nice. I felt like I was ontop of everything and had the world in my hands. I miss that feeling, I haven't had it in a long time. It was so nice. After the show, we went to Back Street for a bit, was very over dressed for the bar, but it didn't matter because it just turned attention my way :) It was nice to have a happy evening. That is all.
Note that it was a friend, not a man.
~*~Tim~*~
current mood:  okay
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| Thursday, March 9th, 2006
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5:54 pm - Wow
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I think I may have met a quality guy. He sparks my interests, isn't a hoe, isn't a deadbeat, has goals, etc. He is such a nice guy, he's really sweet too. I'am going to try and not plunge into it like I did with Sam. Can't always control these things though. :)
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| Sunday, January 15th, 2006
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9:25 pm - Love
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Ok, so this person will remain nameless so that I don't jinx it. BUT, I have found the boi that I want to marry, or at least spend more time with, and get to know. We spend time together once in a great great while. Grab coffee or just spend some time together. Each time we finish hanging out, I wish I would have kissed him, as if it were a date. He is a litte guy, 5' 7" I think, long shaggy hair, blue eyes, and so adorably cute. He and I have so much in common. He doesn't know it yet, but he will be my bf by summer. :)
current mood:  high
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| Sunday, January 8th, 2006
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10:48 pm
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TYPE IN 20 PEOPLE'S NAMES...DON'T LOOK AT THE QUESTIONS.. ITS RUINS THE FUN!
1 Jessica
2 Tony
3 Alice
4 Liz
5 Alicia
6 Sam
7 Brian
8 Kyle
9 Sharon
10 David
11 Sara
12 Sara G
13 Teresa
14 B Teresa
15 Pat
16 Ryan
17 Freddie
18 Regina
19 Joe
20 Jessica M
What would you do if you had never met No. 5?
I dont know
What do you honestly think of No. 10?
Ghetto hoe
Have you ever liked No. 3?
no, lord no lol
If No. 1 died tomorrow, what is one thing that you would need to tell him/her?
That I love her and that she has done alot for me and my well being. And that I would miss all the good times
Would No. 2 and No. 11 make a good couple?
no, he's gay
Describe No. 7 in 3 words.
Talented, Cute, Romantic
Do you think No. 12 is hot?
fuckin ay she is
What do you think of when you see No. 8?
pinky and the brain, cuz he's cute and cuddly and shes wants to take over the world.
Tell me something humiliating about No. 15.
one day he's straight, the next he's gay :) sorry pat
Do you know any of number 10's family members?
no
What's No. 20's favorite color?
dont know, dont care
On a scale of 1-10 how cute is No. 14?
1
What would you do if No. 4 just professed their undying love for you?
thats my sister man...
What languages does No. 19 speak?
English and maybe some arabic or italian
Who is No. 16 going out with?
I think an old rich guy, sugar daddy
Is No. 9 a boy or a girl?
girl
Would No. 18 and No. 4 make a good couple?
Nah I don't think so. Sis and old work lady, no
Who do you think No. 17 would be good for?
hmmm...not sure, I think he is still trying to find himself.
When was the last time you talked to No. 13?
Her house, couple days before christmas.
Does No. 2 have any siblings?
Yes, many.
Would you ever date No. 15?
no
Is No. 7 single? divorced/swinger?
He is single.
What is No. 20's last name?
Matie
What is No. 5's middle name?
dont know
What is No. 10's fantasy?
I'm not sure.
Would you make out with No. 14?
no
Are No. 5 and No. 6 best friends?
no, the dont even know each other, i dont think
Does No. 7 like No. 20?
They've never met
How did you meet No. 18?
work
Is No. 12 older than you?
not by much
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| Saturday, January 7th, 2006
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10:23 pm
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Hey everyone! Not to much going on. Things are slow at work right now, which is great cuz I could use some extra time to myself. We had a great year, but our New Years eve party ended the year out tragically. We had a house of 450. During serving, (buffet), half way through I ran out of food. Only 200 people went through. It was a fucking mess, and omg, I don't even want to explain it step by step and relive it. Chef fucked up. I was so embarrassed for us that I took off my name tag, the name tag that would have told people I was in charge of that mess. We had Lines at the bar 30 people deep all night, it just sucked. Monday, we had a meeting to talk about it, and my boss acted like the food thing wasn't the big part of the problem, he kept pointing out minute shit that we all should have picked up on. I covered my end of it, we had smiling waiters and waitresses hauling ass, and extending excellent service. So fuck em. I know I've said it a million times, but I am honestly activley looking for another job. This job has made me lose two great guys, and many many friends.
In other news, im still single. My 21st birthday was good, except for the car blowing up that morning... I am on a diet again, and going to a hypnotist on tuesday to quit smoking.
That is all.
~*~Tim~*~
current mood: calm
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| Thursday, December 29th, 2005
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7:22 pm
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So yesterday was my 21st birthday. My staff actually remembered and got me a couple things, very nice of them. I got it when I finally made it to work on my birthday, after my car blew up. Not a top 5 birthday. People hoe'd me out, o well....here's to making the next year 100 times better.
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| Sunday, December 25th, 2005
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11:53 am - Merry Christmas
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Merry Christmas everyone! I hope all is well for everyone. I'am watching Titanic, eating my breakfest my mommy made me. I have paper work to do for work today. I did Tony's party last night, we rocked of course, and it all went off with a bang. I did fall down that stairs, ouch. A str8 boi I once liked now wants my sister, weird ay? Other then that, nothing else to report. Merry Christmas.
~*~Tim~*~
current mood:  sore
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| Wednesday, December 21st, 2005
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4:56 pm - Merry Christmas
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unless that affends you, then Happy Holidays :)
Everything is alright. Way to much drama at work, those people are turning into the usual backstabbing kind of work place. They think im to blame for alot of shit being said...o well. Christmas is coming, yay. :\ I am doing T's party on christmas eve....easy money...then family on christmas day and back to work monday. 7 Days till im 21....what should I do for that??? any suggestions? 18 days till NYC, 21 days till South Beach. Liz isn't going to the Navy afterall.. HAHA! I WIN! Nothing else, later bitches. :) j/k
~`~Tim~`~
current mood: frustrated
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| Saturday, November 26th, 2005
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3:44 am
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I am miserable, and lonley.
My friends, and my ex have deserted me to be friends with an exfriend of mine. They dont even answer phone calls anymore. Once Jessica has peanut, im out, completly out. I guess im out now, out of the loop. I don't know that he turned them away from me, maybe not, maybe I did it myself. I can't take to much more, im not strong enough anymore.
current mood: crushed
current music: Bette - The Rose
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| Monday, October 31st, 2005
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11:27 pm - Time for an update
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Not so much an update, as it is a life evaluation.
In high school, I blew off certain things I wanted to do or be a part of because I thought I didn't fit in, would look like an idiot, or had to work (cuz in highschool my paycheck ment something in my house, so glad things are better). Anyway, I missed out on some things. Now, here I am. 20 years old, less then two months away from 21. I am a salary employee, working 60-80 hours a week. No health insurance, no gas card, no milage pay, nothing. Lately I have felt like a pee'on employee there. I use to love my job. Anyway, it basically completly comsumes my life. I work every weekend fri sat and sun, so no weekend life. As far as during the week, by the time I get up at 7, drive an hour and 15 mintues to work, work till 7 and then drive home...doesn't leave much time for anything else. It's a new building, with alot of growing to do. My boss tells me that waiting it out and getting it going with finacially have been worth it to me 5-10 years from now. I don't think im willing to wait that long. I mean, it COMPLETLY consumes my life. I have no life, which brings me back to not wanting to miss out on things. It could very well be worth it 5-10 years from now...but im gonna miss my entire 20's. My other option is clothing retail manager, I have a job waiting for me if I want it. Pay just a little less then what I make now but includes health insurance and I get my life back. I could then have a set schedule and go to school to do something I actually like. I mean, I don't konw what it feels like to set aside financial needs, matieral wants, and "what you should be doing" and actually doing something that I like. Even 10 years from now, im still gonna work every fucking weekend. Which may be great once (if ever) im married, but not at this point. I want to know, IS IT WORTH IT TO SET ASIDE FINANCIAL NEEDS, MATERIAL WANTS, AND "WHAT YOU SHOULD BE DOING" AND INSTEAD DO SOMETHING THAT INTERESTS YOU AND MAKES YOU HAPPY?? I really need a couple different point of views here before I do anything crazy, or raise any flags at work. If you were me, would you do this? Would you work the way I work, knowing that 5 years from now your going to make kick ass money (still working weekends)? OR do you say enoough, lets live now? Really need advice. I mean my heart is/was with Crystal Gardens, my hall in howell. I really do love it, but it is just asking so much of me. Anyone who really knows me knows how I feel about my job, and what it means to me and would also know that this is not easy for me to even think about. So, give me advice please.
I get a new car this week, yay! If all goes well, cross your fingers for me!! SEBRING COUPLE!!
Thats it for now, tired, and gotta be in the office early tomorrow. try to attempt sleep, even though I haven't been sleeping well lately :)
Goodnite, give me advice!!
~*~Tim~*~
current mood:  confused
current music: Josh Gracin --Brass Bed
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| Sunday, August 21st, 2005
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4:16 am
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should be sleeping, gotta be up at 6 for work. O well. I hope everyone is doing well. I was going to bitch, but...why do that. It doesn't accomplish anything and my mother always said, "if you dont have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all". So my lips are sealed for now.
Goodnite
Tim
current mood:  tired
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| Thursday, July 7th, 2005
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8:37 pm
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I am in Love, for real this time. His name is Sam...and thats all I want to tell you right now. I hate my job more and more everyday, which is going to just make it easier to leave in sometime in the next 6 months. Mark my words, I will be back in college first thing in January. Liz is going to the Navy in like 6 months, she has a couple more tests. I am sinking financially. I have a horrible stomach ache at the moment. I know am off to work, im gonna be late, tata. Love Tim
current mood: cheerful
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| Wednesday, June 8th, 2005
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12:02 pm - It has been quite the day
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I played hookey with work. Just wasn't feeling it today, and besides I didn't have shit to do there. I slept in, and awoke to breakfest from my mommy :) I had alot of things hit me, and was served a couple blows that I didn't expect.
1. LIZ IS GRADUATING Its scares me, and im proud of her cuz we all know I didn't walk with my class. I know she is going to go far.
2. Liz is joining the Navy, its just a matter of months before she goes away. This scares me because im conserned for her safety. I am also scared that she won't ever be coming back or keeping in touch with me. She better keep in touch with at least me. I LOVE YOU LIZ...I KNOW U READ MY JOURNAL!! lol
3. Someone, who I love dearly as a friend, revealed that they are in love with me and that its either all or nothing, and I was faced with having to choose. I told the person that it wasn't fair for me to choose, im not the one fighting an interior battle. I told the person my stance (that I love them as a friend) and nothing more, then they said you pick nothing...out of all or nothing...and now because they couldn't work it out I lost someone who was really there for me. Its hard to get in to me, not many people understand and are able to get there. But this person did, number 5 to get there. Now they are walking out of my life. Thats fair, right?
So much is changing in the next few months, im scared!!!!
I am working tons of hours cuz im salary now which sucks sometimes. Still have some passion left for the place so there I will remain for awhile yet.
Gotta get some sleep, up early for work.
Keep in touch
~*~Tim~*~
current mood: restless
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